Saturday, January 21, 2012

Boy How Times Change

I was playing around on Myspace, I know I know! It's old and outdated but I was on it. I came across one of those silly survey things that everyone with a myspace was doing at the time. I read over my answers and honestly laughed. Some of the things I'd put, I had been so sure of but now, I don't. I've hit that age where I realize I don't know much of nothing; Kind of makes me miss being dumb and thinking I knew everything. Anyways I decided to re-take the survey again. My age has changed I'm 23 and not 19. My favorite sport to Watch changed, My choice artist has turned into decorators ( never saw that coming). I no longer think Sour Apple Soda is the best drink and I no longer care what people think If I didn't sneak out of the house. Just thought that was kind of cool a lot more has changed. Especially nicknames...goodness knows Justin slices and dices my name up like a butcher to make new ones. Feel Free to read my answers.

NAME:Hutch
NICKNAME:Hutchling
D.O.B:09/25.88
AGE:23
BIRTH LOCATION:Orillia
CURRENT LOCATION:Just before the sticks
EYE COLOR:Honey Brown
HAIR COLOR/STYLE:Brown/ Non-Existent
HEIGHT:5'5
NATIONALITY:Canadian
RELIGION:Christian
WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN YOUR LIFE:God, Friends, Family
---FAVORITES---
COLOR:Red
SPORT TO PLAY:Hockey
SPORT TO WATCH:Hockey
SCHOOL SUBJECT:Arts and historys
STORE:BlueNotes
FOOD:Edible
SHOE:DC
CLOTHING STYLE:Jeans and T-shirts
TYPE OF MUSIC:Versatile
PLACE TO GO WHEN UR UPSET:Hockey Rink
PLACE TO VISIT:Scotland
PERFUME:OLD SPICE
PASTIME:Video Editing
SCENT:Vanilla Smells Nice
DRINK:Dr.Pepper
FLOWER:Dandi-Lion
CANDY:Sour Cherry Blasters
FRUIT:Water Melon 
ICE CREAM:Moose Tracks
PERSON IN YOUR LIFE:I'm unattached 
ARTIST:Colin McAllister & Justin Ryan
MUSICIAN:Bon Jovi
COLOR NAIL POLISH:Can't Say I wear much nail polish
WEBSITE:www.youtube.com/gearbox48 & www.youtube.com/brickers
---HAVE YOU EVER---
BEEN DRUNK:Possibly
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE:Honestly....NO
SMOKED:NO
BEEN ON A PLANE:YES
SEEN SNOW:I live in CANADA it's a pre-requisite 
HAD SEX:Wouldn't You Like to Know
DONE ANYTHING SEXUAL:I do it on Hockey skates every week
SKIPPED SCHOOL:Never
BEEN OUT OF THE COUNTRY:Yes Sir
---FUTURE---
DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED:You know, I'm not all that sure
DO WANT TO HAVE KIDS:I Love kids..but I'm not to sure I want them
HOW MANY:Maybe Two
DO YOU ALREADY KNOW THEIR NAMES:   Patrick And Lewis
WHERE WILL YOU LIVE:I don't know Collingwood maybe
WHAT WILL YOUR OCCUPATION BE:At this point, I thought I'd have one.

Monday, January 2, 2012

365 days of Pictures [ Day 2]

Black Pens- I always write in black pen, it aggravates me when I have read things written in blue or any other colour. I find Black Ink looks far neater, more professional and definitely badass.

I've always had a bit of Pen OCD. I'm not a fan of simple bic ball points or gel pens. I prefer a black ink pen with a litte thicker then fine point with a smooth roller ball.

A little Pen History
-H

Sunday, January 1, 2012

365 days of Pictures [ Day 1]

You know I've never actually complete did a full 365 days of pictures cycle. 2012 is a new year and by golly it's a good year to start. I figure each picture will tell some sort of story or something.

Lego Airplane, Lego reminds me of my childhood. Spent hours building gizmos and vehicles and things I saw that no one else did.
I also love airplanes.

-H

Saturday, December 31, 2011

2011 Cap Off and My Resolutions

This really caps of 2011 doesn't it? My last blog of the year, not that I blogged much in 2011. To says this year has been a roller coaster would be an understatement. This year has been all over the place mentally and physically. I did things that both surprised and disappointed me.

On the brighter sides of this past year, I spent a lot of it attending college. A total eye opener for me, my view of the world and what was in it began to open. I found a new confidence in myself as fledgling as it was. 2011 marks the first year where I haven't had to deal with The Carpenters and their self-created vendetta against me, a welcome change. I also managed to recover from the damages my editing/ company networking sustained due to their drama de jour so to speak. I'm usually not one to go out, meet up with people or try forging new friendships. My life has been a dumping ground for social disappointment. It surprised the hell out of me that I did meet up with Colin and Justin. I'm actually more surprised I didn't throw up on Colin ( He was beside me). I was that high strung and so tightly wound I initially missed them in McDonald's, Justin had to call me. Then with in about 8 minutes I was totally at ease and really content in their company. Which was new for me and a turning point. After that day I found myself doing things on the social front. Actually going to a party or two and not just blending into the background. Where would I be without my Scottish big brothers and really all of this inherited family I've picked up along the way, y'all know who you are. 2011 also saw me finding myself as an artist all over again. I kind of got lost as a video editor and just stuck to formulas that worked instead of feelings. 2011 has seen a lot of mental and emotional changes.

2011 hasn't been all fields of daphodiles, daisies and whatever else may make up one one of Justin's corsages come to think of it, I don't know most of what makes up a corsage. I know a pin is involved somewhere. I definitely got stressed this year and it manifested in my body. I got kinda fat, fortunately having rather large muscular legs it seemed well proportioned but sweetie the love handles where there.  I also questioned so much this year and more often than not it was my own self-worth. The job hunt hasn't gone all that well for me, sometimes It's like having a brick thrown in your face. Thats been a struggle through all of 2011 and hopefully the tides will change in 2012.

That pretty much sums up the year for me and now for my Resolutions.

1.  This year, I'm taking time for ME. It's something I didn't do to much of in 2011.

2.  I'm kicking ass and taking names! I'm delivering my own stuntreel for 2012. It's not going to be easy to get back into my stunt prime of 145lbs.....40 lbs ago. I've got a lot of opposition saying I wont do this but I will because I want it bad enough.

3. TRIP! it needs to happen, I haven't done a thing since 2008. Where  to? I'm not sure but it won't be Toronto. Toronto is not a Trip it's a staycation.

4. I'm going to reflect on myself in a more positive light despite what a lot of people say of  or to me, think of me.

5. I'm going to Grow

Friday, November 25, 2011

My own darkness

Excuse my Rouge Eye Brows, No time to tame them!
"Never going to be" it appears that this has become my mantra an ever repeating phrase that plays it's own staccato beat within my soul. Negativity has become my own dark passenger, even the positive has morphed. I've become a master of masks, each day I'm becoming numb not knowing what to feel anymore. I'm not depressed but I'm certainly not happy, not sad but probably not angry just am. More and more when stare into my own eyes, I don't like what I see staring back. Where there used be light now resides darkness. I must be my own worst enemy, I should of learned to conform to fit everybody's mould of what I should be, who I should be, How I should feel, How I should act, How I should dress, How I should live, what I should like, what I should like, who I should like and who I shouldn't. But I just can't do it. Damn it I've tried,tried and tried again but the mould will never fit nor will I contort to fit. If I were to contort I'd no longer just not like what I see in the eyes staring back, I'll hate the person in the mirror because there would be nothing left of me just stuff to make everyone else happy with me. Is that really worth it?  Everyone's happiness with me in exchange for living in my own personal misery and hell. They say only the smallest fleck of light is needed to keep the darkness at bay so for now I'll hang on to that tiny barely there speak of light and not let this darkness consume.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

FAG, NIGGER and The View

FAG it's a three Letter Word
NIGGER it's a six Letter Word
Both are used to define a community of people
Both are Negative
Both discriminate
Both are socially acceptable
Both are socially unacceptable
Both incite derogatory slurs and hate

Now here is my opinion of these words, They suck. At the same time, I've accepted there in the dictionary and people are going to use them weather or not I like it. I do agree that hate is hate. I'll never be the one sit around and condone hate but at the same time I think both of the very community in which these HATEFUL words Define are equally at fault for the words use and equally as stupid as those who use them.

I don't believe in this bullshit, I hear spun round by both these communities.
" I can use it because I'm BLACK"
" I can use it because I'm GAY"

If a gay tells another gay " Your a Fag" or calls a straight person " Fag" well that is no big deal there "GAY". Yet if a straight person says those things, it's considered the roots of HATE.  The same could be said of a black. If one black says " Whats Up Nigger" to another black person. No big deal it's just a greeting a happy hey how you doing but if a white person says that, well there a Racist Bastard. Despite the exact same context being used if the non-gay or white person says it all of a sudden it's a hate crime.

Am I judging the entire community of Blacks or the Entire Community of Gays, Nope. That would make me a rather large douche bag and a little hypocritical seeing as one of my greatest friends is not only Black, He's Gay.

There is homophobia happening with in the LGBT community itself and racism happening with in the Black community itself. It's my thought and opinion that believe unless these words are eradicated out of the vary community that complains about them being used as hate worlds then the continued use of those words outside of the very communities will always be seen as somewhat socially acceptable and not as big of a deal as the very communities want the world to see them as.

This being said, I don't agree with racism and I don't agree with homophobia. I think both the communities themselves and the a community outside have a level of responsibility  in stoping both racism and homophobia. Neither can expect either to change without being willing to change themselves.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Summer 2011

It's officially Fall, at least here in the Northern Hemisphere. I've had quite a rocky summer, got thrusted into situations that I'm not used to. The biggest factor for me was having eight people in my house. I didn't grow up living the Brady Bunch life, didn't share my room growing up past the age of five. I've never had to figure out how to sleep with a room mate who snores like a rogue bone grinder in that horror movie you probably shouldn't have watched the night before. Due to the influx of relatives I lost a huge part of summer and couldn't go to many places. Factor in a pregnant women who is irritable without a bun in the oven and positively insufferable when their is one being baked. Then add four house hosts who are all used to having their own space and you've got a perfect recipe for a stressful summer.  Today it's not about the negative it's about all the good that came with this summer.

Warning: Contents Are Crazier Than They Appear
It should go without saying, The biggest highlight of summer 2011 involved two Scottish decorators named Colin & Justin.  I distinctly remember being a high school senior and watching Home Heist. Trust me it had nothing to do with my wanting to better my sense of interior style. I was 18 shooting Justin's corsages with a sticky dart gun and watching the break-ins pretty much did it for me. I was working in a woodwork at the time that specialized in furniture and always said " I'd had to be their carpenter". There was always a carpenter who endured the famous rants of the fab twins. If not the carpenter it was painter or Cheryl ( Gotta Love Cheryl) it made for some immensely entertaining TV not that ever stuck around long enough to see a reveal. It wasn't until my twenties where I developed any real appreciation for their work beyond the comedic value of Home Heist. I was probably 21 before I started watching the show again and noticing brilliance of all their designs, ultimately my over all opinion of the show changed.  Needless to say six months ago just about everything I ever summed up in my head about these two got turned on it's head. It started with them asking if I had the common cold or man flu and the rest as they say, is History. Anyways I finally got around meeting with the boys and having lunch. It was such a huge highlight and that lunch really helped break up some of the stress and toll this summer had taken on me. I wouldn't trade these two guys for anything and their great big brothers and good examples to follow. Sshh I can still be seen shooting darts at corsages sometimes.

Another cool highlight had to be the Zoo. I
absolutely loved it. Getting to see animals that I don't really get to see in my everyday life and capturing them on film was incredible. I've always loved animals. The nice thing about going to the Zoo in your twenties, you can see over the bars on your own and see more stuff because you've got to go to the potty far less.
My favourite animals were the SnuffleSnouts, Hippos and the Jungle Cats, MEOW.


SO BRANDON & KEITH

If I wanted to be technical Keith really doesn't count as a summer highlight, I knew him way before but he plays a pretty huge part in this whole thing and another part of his own. Realistically if Keith were not in the picture there would be no Brandon.
Brandon's kind of an unknown and it's a shame because more people should know him, he's probably one of the most incredible men I personally know. Theres a story there and you can catch up that on Brandon's Blog. I ended up talking to him through Keith and it's been one of the most mentally positive things to happen to me in a long time. I find myself more educated on a number of things because of him, things I would of been considered beyond averagely educated in and things I had no clue about.
Even though he's threatened to beat me several times, I've scored a good friend in Brandon. Now I'd scored a good friend in Keith a lot earlier. Keith is another incredible guy despite his 5'7 he has the heart of man ten times as tall.  He's always helping people weather that be massaging away physical aches or doing his part to fight breast cancer, he just doesn't stop, need a good massage find him HERE. I bug him mercilessly about his affair with the gym but I think he's rubbing off on me because I find myself spending more time getting fit and wanting to help more people. Both of them are making me healthier and wiser and frankly knowledge is invaluable.


Combat Hospital was a highlight for me, being passionate about he military and always enjoying a good tv show this was good summer fun. It was said to be a modern day MASH and much like the Hawaii Five-0 re-make I found this to be completely different to it's associated pre-desesor. Combat Hospital is far less campy than MASH and gives more of a human face to what goes on in Combat Hospital over in Afghanistan. It also helps that it's fine CANADIAN programming.
Rookie Blue was the show of last summer for me, it was a fresh brand new show but in it's sophomore season the new car scent was gone and the trusted beat up Ford Pick Up was here. What made Rookie Blue great was the RBparties on Twitter, Yes I'm that much of a geek.  It was dorky but it was fun live tweeting with hundreds of other viewers and the cast every week and tweet with some of the same people over again.  The cast & crew of this show are so involved with the viewers it's unreal.





Another cool thing that happened this summer, I became somewhat of a brand ambassador for CheapSk8shoes, BuySkateShoes, BuySnow and BuyWake. They are providing me the product to give my own honest blunt opinion on. It's an amazing set up for me because it's letting me divert my limited cash flow back into producing my reels and college. What really gets me about this umbella of brands, The people behind it are so down to earth it's almost sickening.








Along with these there were several other moments of the summer I loved. Talking to friends, walks in the park and a cold freeze pop on a blisteringly hot day. There were moments of laughter and frolic. My summer wasn't so bad over all.