This really caps of 2011 doesn't it? My last blog of the year, not that I blogged much in 2011. To says this year has been a roller coaster would be an understatement. This year has been all over the place mentally and physically. I did things that both surprised and disappointed me.
On the brighter sides of this past year, I spent a lot of it attending college. A total eye opener for me, my view of the world and what was in it began to open. I found a new confidence in myself as fledgling as it was. 2011 marks the first year where I haven't had to deal with The Carpenters and their self-created vendetta against me, a welcome change. I also managed to recover from the damages my editing/ company networking sustained due to their drama de jour so to speak. I'm usually not one to go out, meet up with people or try forging new friendships. My life has been a dumping ground for social disappointment. It surprised the hell out of me that I did meet up with Colin and Justin. I'm actually more surprised I didn't throw up on Colin ( He was beside me). I was that high strung and so tightly wound I initially missed them in McDonald's, Justin had to call me. Then with in about 8 minutes I was totally at ease and really content in their company. Which was new for me and a turning point. After that day I found myself doing things on the social front. Actually going to a party or two and not just blending into the background. Where would I be without my Scottish big brothers and really all of this inherited family I've picked up along the way, y'all know who you are. 2011 also saw me finding myself as an artist all over again. I kind of got lost as a video editor and just stuck to formulas that worked instead of feelings. 2011 has seen a lot of mental and emotional changes.
2011 hasn't been all fields of daphodiles, daisies and whatever else may make up one one of Justin's corsages come to think of it, I don't know most of what makes up a corsage. I know a pin is involved somewhere. I definitely got stressed this year and it manifested in my body. I got kinda fat, fortunately having rather large muscular legs it seemed well proportioned but sweetie the love handles where there. I also questioned so much this year and more often than not it was my own self-worth. The job hunt hasn't gone all that well for me, sometimes It's like having a brick thrown in your face. Thats been a struggle through all of 2011 and hopefully the tides will change in 2012.
That pretty much sums up the year for me and now for my Resolutions.
1. This year, I'm taking time for ME. It's something I didn't do to much of in 2011.
2. I'm kicking ass and taking names! I'm delivering my own stuntreel for 2012. It's not going to be easy to get back into my stunt prime of 145lbs.....40 lbs ago. I've got a lot of opposition saying I wont do this but I will because I want it bad enough.
3. TRIP! it needs to happen, I haven't done a thing since 2008. Where to? I'm not sure but it won't be Toronto. Toronto is not a Trip it's a staycation.
4. I'm going to reflect on myself in a more positive light despite what a lot of people say of or to me, think of me.
5. I'm going to Grow
